10193.) I'm extremely sick and tired of you always hurting me. My heart can only handle so many beatings. This has been going on far too long, so I decided to let you go. I was going to move on and be happy without you in my life. But I can't. Sitting here now and thinking about it, I might actually need you, and I hate myself for it. You've left me so scarred that leaving you behind would be like leaving myself behind.